TEWWG Pre-Reading Journal

In some situations, I am the girl that "just exists." Let's say, my two best friends passionately hate each other, yet their my best friends and I would like to hang out with both of them without either of them getting jealous. I hate getting stuck with one person who's talking crap about another person, and then getting asked all kinds of questions whenever I hang out with the one getting talked about. I'm not ever sure what the right thing to do is, and all I can do is take in what they're saying. But once they find out that they were getting talked about, they end up getting mad at me because I didn't tell them in the first place! It's so stressful, and I'm sure that's exactly how Janie feels about her situation, too. But even though it hurts, most times I have to just hang out with someone totally different because I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings or make them angry with me.

            Working so hard in school and trying to get everything ready for graduation, in 10 years, I’ll be doing just that.

            I’m hoping to go to college to become a plastic surgeon or a personal trainer, and if I get lucky, I’ll have a career in acting just like I’ve always wanted. If I do get the opportunity to act, I’ll probably still take my college classes just incase I need something to fall back on, if you know what I mean. Hopefully I will have found the right guy by then and be in the most wonderful relationship that anyone could be in, with him right there by my side every step of the way. I’m not planning on having any kids until I get my education and career on the right path, and then I want to be able to enjoy a family with no worries.

9-11

Being in the third grade, having absolutely no clue what the twin towers were, it's kind of hard to remember everything about September 11, 2001. I was so ready to go play with the puppets in Mrs. Davis's class (our elementary counselor), that I was paying absolutely no attention to anyone around me. That is, until I walked out into the hallway. I had no idea what was going on and why our teachers were crying, but I was just as scared as they were. After hearing everyone talk about it, I soon realized what a tragedy that was.

If I could commemorate everyone that died that day in some special way, I would do it. Even if it mean jumping off of a plane with an American flag as a parachute. It could symbolize what Americans are doing to keep us safe from terrorist attacks in the future. But, even though a lot of things have changed since 9-11, we'll never be 100% safe from danger.

Journal

I go to school, volleyball practice, cheerleading practice, and work everyday, plus I have doubled up on my math classes this year, but if I could change one thing in my life, I'd change the negative things that people saw in me to the positive things that people don't see. Yeah, I might be having a bad hair day, but because everyone's attention is fully on that, they can't see how precise my eye make-up looks, how cute my clothes are, or even how clear my skin is! They also can't be seen talking to me. I'm totally uncool if I don't come to school looking ravishing everyday, yet the people who think that, haven't ever even talked to me before. And it's not just me, it's everyone. Everyone gets judged by the negative things that people see first. Is it really that necessary to look that closely for unusual things about people? 

Friday: 9-5-08

Today has been a horribly long day. It seems like everything is going wrong. Everyone is upset about Justin's horrifying experience last night, Kat's sister's dog died this morning, I feel like I've lost my best friend, and we have volleyball practice after school. I think that the only thing that could cheer me up right now is music and the football game tonight.